On this Day Three Years Ago…

Today marks three years since I found those tormented videos. The videos that shattered my demented world. My adoptive father, Tim, decided that values and respect towards not only women in general but towards his very own daughter meant nothing through his brown, devilish eyes. All those brown, devilish eyes wanted was his daughter’s love.…

The Fourth Hard Truth After Speaking/Reporting Abuser

As I sat in the corner of my bedroom, swaying my body back and forth rapidly, holding my knees to my chest. I kept arguing with my lovely voice inside my head. Who I refer to as Her. As I continued to sway and scream at myself, not a soul around, I locked my helpless,…

The Third Hard Truth After Speaking/Reporting Abuser

I see the fear in those that I love. All wide-eyed and walking on eggshells as if their next breathe I was going to explode with toxic emotion. I have a certain pattern to my behavior. I always enter a depressive yet manic impulsive state when every holiday appears. And my Mom’s birthday is slowly…

The Second Hard Truth After Speaking/Reporting Abuser

The guilt oh man will the guilt start creeping into every thought if you allow the emotion to overtake. And I know this because I allowed guilt to change the direction of my life, which ultimately almost cost me my life. I didn’t know how to handle the pain I put upon those I told…

The First Hard Truth After Speaking/Reporting Abuser

I wish I could look into your unfocused, exhausted eyes and tell you everything will be okay. Everything will work in your favor and there will no longer any more pain to endure. That once you tell your truth to the world everything will fall into place and will be rainbows and butterflies. But I…

5 Hard Truths After Speaking/Reporting Abuser

I wish I could look into your unfocused, exhausted eyes and tell you everything will be okay. Everything will work in your favor and there will no longer any more pain to endure. That once you tell your truth to the world everything will fall into place and will be rainbows and butterflies. But I…